I Long for Pain, In Pain !

Tonight,

Feels so dim, airy and resolved.

I gaze into my faint mind,

I look through and beyond,

Breathing in the pages of past,

I travel,

By memories – Immortal,

This fragile moment, 

Leads me into floating trance, 

Which comforts and covers,

My naked thoughts,

Those are shivering in cold of the day,

So I waited,

Till this hour of recluse,

During which I knock,  

The doors of my juvenescence,

-          Erratically hidden,

 Now, I seek to enter,

        Into the space of torment,

        To drink nostalgic pain,

        Yes! I am thirsty,

        I crave and crawl,

        For that quenching drop,

        Of ache and sorrow,

        This wakes up my drowsy thoughts,

        Those are vanishing in the air,

        Buried underneath soils of “comfort”,

        Lord, bless me with suffering,

        So that I can rise again,

        And fly,

        Beyond desires and joys,

        Into the spaces of ecstatic twinge,

        To waver and wander,

        In the heaviness of bright anguish,

        I soar into Morning through mourning,

        With ejected “grief”,

        And empty heart,

        So, I long for darkness again,

        Tears Tonight!

Mirror Eye

Flooding agony gushes beyond my tears,

Through the silent voices and still memories,

Of fleeing present and perished past,

I fade away like vapor on the mirror,

On which I see myself evaporating,

To dissolve in your eyes,

As I look through,

I cease from disappearing,

Discovering my existence,

In every layer of nostalgic breathe,

I appear,

On the mirror of life,

Life that gushes beyond tears,

Through streams of sore reflections,

I define myself!

The Love Smoke ~

 Silky Fire ooze softly from deepest outlets,

 Warmly ignite every mysterious breath – secretly,

 Sprinkles and whispers,

 Of ceaseless imaginings – so innocent,

 Untouched and unspoken,

 To fly with wings of the cotton flames,

 Light and float,

 On still nostalgic surfaces,

 Burning over the carpet fields of time,

 Emitting crystal smokes of love – Divine!

 Through the translucency, I see…

 The tender membranes tear and bleed,

 Stretched beyond life and reason,

 As the virgin wind pierce barriers of “Reality”,

 The flames of desire flow eternally,

 Into the deepest inlets - hidden!